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*dusts this thing off*

I suck. I really suck. I can go 22 days without a public post and 17 days after a locked one before posting again, so I must suck. I was thinking - even today - "Ha, maybe I'll post in April, maybe I won't." On a blog I offered to abandon for "greener pastures" months ago.

I don't feel like writing about Cheeto, though. He was among the main reasons I stopped (majority Republican Congress being the other, because you can't fight facts). I was too overwhelmed. I wasn't thorough in covering Spray Tan In Chief to begin with - I'd read what others were chewing over or linking to, then pick and choose, usually offering up bits and pieces others didn't - filling the gaps, if you will. Which was good, for a while.

But you can get tired of just being good in a pinch.

Then I started looking at bloggers like [personal profile] solarbird, [personal profile] conuly and [personal profile] gwydion - whose in-depth coverage are the bees knee's - and realized I'm never going to do that. I don't have the time, patience, or attention span. I can't sit at the computer that long verbally wringing my hands over the Deplorange regime because I'll probably go nuts. And sitting at the computer has been bad for me over time, woo-hee has it now.

So if I can't, then maybe I should stop this, because I'm already overwhelmed.

Not to mention my favorite role turns out be cheerleader, surprising even me. I'm more into victories - the first travel ban being held up and revoked, Trump being proven wrong or a liar time and again, the health care bill being held up or failing - than I'm into all the currently fashionable doom and gloom.

Even Nancy Pelosi walks around with this half-shocked, half-empty looking in her eyes like she's seen the devil, who is now running our country, the fuck. I can't sink to that level, sorry. An Irish girl's got her pride.

So I can cheer but no one cheers along, can yell "Go team!" and pump a fist in the air but the team's dragging bats, ready to walk off the diamond for good. And so many people are "scared", and I'm like, "What is that?"

No, seriously, what is it?

I was terrified for weeks - maybe months - with the election. One life ended, another began 2am on Nov. 9th. Both were my own. I've had tons of trouble, sleepless nights and fucked up days where I'm at best in an awful fog and at worst drowning in apprehension. Just for the fact that it went as it did, and that the newly majority Republican Congress moved so fast to undo everything the other side has spent decades fighting for.

And I worried anew over the first Muslim ban because of the heavy implications not just for Muslims but other communities down the road. But then the orange who fought so hard for it? L-O-S-T. For the 20 years the elevation of a piece of fruit to the highest office in the land has aged me and spooked me out of my own skin, at least 12 of them rolled off my shoulders instantly in just one night, and I haven't really felt so afraid since.

There are more holes in that piece of fruit than you'll find in five blocks of Swiss cheese. He is a joke. Hopefully one that gets thrown out of office soon, and I don't mean in four years - hopefully three and a half times as fast.

I tried to ask myself tonight while cooking dinner (liver and onions - because maybe I'm anemic) OK, if you're going online later to piss and moan about how inadequate you are against the sheer spectacular whirlwind of bullshit ejected by this ongoing orangado, what will you do about it? Because there's only one thing I hate more than other people whining, and that's me, whining. I'm like, "Action, bitch, take some".

But all that occurs to me is, "Hire a team of reporters?" Which...dudes, would be heaven. I'd *love* it. I might not run it off Dreamwidth, of course, but have a team, yes.

And a gun for potential grizzly, because you just never know.

But yeah, short of that, I've just kind of fizzled. I'm out of predictions, at least for the moment, but glad the Muslim ban got held up yet again (may it be held up into perpetuity) and glad the health care "plan" got "pulled", though I'd much rather it "die" in an actual "vote", something these cowards are a shade too pale to pull off until it's more "conservative" - Republican codespeak for "so it kills as many of their own voters as possible".

In the meantime, I realized without logging into or reading Dreamwidth that I don't run out of things to do and my old adage is true. Actually, two of them are. A poem of mine from years ago goes: "Never settle for less/When you want nothing but the best/If you've got to have more/You know where to find the door...I'd rather have nothing at all/Than have a little/But not have it all", which completely sums up how I feel about covering Rumpernado, at least for the moment.

The other adage is "it all comes back around" (actually, that's the title of another one of my poems). I realize we'll spend the next however many years (hopefully, not even one) - collectively, as a country - live on Twitter, CNN, CBS, and coming to a radio station near you - watching whomever voted this orange into office get what they asked for, and I'm going to do a lot of that thing where I haltingly laugh into my sleeve, then pretend I was coughing, then wonder how much they're enjoying it.

Live and learn!

They're getting it now. The healthcare bill - should it ever come forward - ETA, 3-29-17: aaaaand it's baaaaack - will decimate their finances, families, personal well-being, and even take some of their lives. Talk about dying for your country. The shuttering of the Appalachian programs will put the most ardent orange peel supporters - who, I don't kid myself, might very well continue to support him in spite of it - out of their very jobs. And just wait 'til the new tax laws come out. Just wait.

Mind you, I'm not exactly happy about any of this. But they deserve every last bit of it, a lot more than those who didn't vote for citrus zest ever have or will. Them I feel sorry for. His voters? Uh, maybe get back to me on that.

What happens when you get what you say only others deserve?

When you don't have a conscience until what you wished upon them comes back to bite you right in the ass?

That might be a question we'll spend decades trying to answer, starting right about...now.

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Date: Mar. 25th, 2017 09:18 pm (UTC)
twistedchick: General Leia in The Force Awakens (Default)
From: [personal profile] twistedchick
You do what you can, and don't worry about what you can't. Others will do things with that. When I started newsblogging, I don't think I knew anyone else who was doing it. That has changed over the years/decade(s); now others pick up and run with the things that overwhelm me, because those things do not overwhelm them.

Re: Sorry that it's long

Date: Mar. 27th, 2017 06:16 pm (UTC)
twistedchick: General Leia in The Force Awakens (Default)
From: [personal profile] twistedchick
Ah, but that's the point. You don't see it. Doesn't mean it's not happening.

I get comments from a handful of people -- not always the same ones, but not a huge number. But there are also people who don't necessarily comment but forward everything that catches their eye to people not on DW. And it goes on from there. When you drop a stone into the lake, the ripples get bigger and bigger -- you can't see how large they are or where they will go. I have maybe at most 700 people who will look at what I write; I've also been doing this for 15 years, first on Blogger and LJ and IJ and then here. Some have followed me all that time.

We don't know the effect of what we do. If you feel led to continue, do so. If not, do something else.

Re: Sorry that it's long

Date: Apr. 2nd, 2017 07:20 am (UTC)
conuly: (Default)
From: [personal profile] conuly
Ah, but that's the point. You don't see it. Doesn't mean it's not happening.

That's one of the reasons I obsessively use bitly - it lets me see how many clicks each link gets. Obviously I can't see all the reposts unless they repost my bitly link, but it's something. And some people have explicitly told me that occasionally, they think the headline tells them all they need to know about an issue, thank you, but they appreciate seeing the headline.

Re: Sorry that it's long

Date: Apr. 2nd, 2017 08:38 am (UTC)
conuly: (Default)
From: [personal profile] conuly
It's all the same shortener, except some organizations pay bitly to have custom links.

I'm also just a wee bit obsessed about making my links short and manageable. I always strip out the ?utm stuff at the ends of the URLs before I shorten them! So there's probably better ways to track that info, but bitly is easy and does two things I like.

Re: Sorry that it's long

Date: Apr. 4th, 2017 04:49 am (UTC)
conuly: (Default)
From: [personal profile] conuly
Well, if you ever want a particular link expanded you are welcome to ask. Most of them come from Reuters or the Associated Press in some capacity, so they're easily googleable too.

Re: Sorry that it's long

Date: Mar. 27th, 2017 06:28 pm (UTC)
twistedchick: General Leia in The Force Awakens (Default)
From: [personal profile] twistedchick
Also, seriously -- starting a post by beating yourself up for not posting is an immediate turn-off. Beating yourself up for any reason is a turn-off. If that's what you want to write about, fine, but you'll lose people from sentence one if that's the case.

Re: Sorry that it's long

Date: Mar. 29th, 2017 07:37 pm (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
I would rather not have your putdowns on my friendslist. I gave you an honest opinion and you responded with a slam. Farewell.

Re: Sorry that it's long

Date: Mar. 29th, 2017 08:38 pm (UTC)
twistedchick: General Leia in The Force Awakens (Default)
From: [personal profile] twistedchick
The 'negative comment' was simple critique of what I see as a weakness in your blogging. If you want readers, as you claim, you might consider changing your habit of claiming your deficits.

And your insult in return says much more about you than it does about me. I will not miss seeing your attitude and hostility in my friendslist.

Re: Sorry that it's long

Date: Apr. 2nd, 2017 07:22 am (UTC)
conuly: (Default)
From: [personal profile] conuly
Well, that all escalated quickly. Huh.

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Date: Mar. 31st, 2017 03:55 pm (UTC)
conuly: (Default)
From: [personal profile] conuly
Then I started looking at bloggers like [personal profile] solarbird, [personal profile] conuly and [personal profile] gwydion - whose in-depth coverage are the bees knee's - and realized I'm never going to do that. I don't have the time, patience, or attention span.

Super flattering, but mostly I sit and wonder why I can't manage the energy to update more often or add commentary :)

We all have to do what we can do. Burnout isn't good for anybody.

I tried to ask myself tonight while cooking dinner (liver and onions - because maybe I'm anemic)

Have you considered getting a Lucky Fish? They're these iron ingots, shaped like fish, that you put in your food as you're cooking and they release bioavailable iron and they really work, and every time you buy one another gets donated to, um, Cambodia or Vietnam or... I don't know, some places in Asia where anemia was rampant until this caught on.

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Date: Apr. 1st, 2017 04:12 pm (UTC)
conuly: (Default)
From: [personal profile] conuly
In the meantime, I cook almost everything that cooks on the stove in cast iron skillets and Dutch ovens (cast iron purportedly transfers iron directly into food)

That's the same principle behind the lucky fish. I figure, every little bit helps, right?